So as i was saying earlier, the weather is kinda aweful. Well the light rain we’ve had earlier today has turned into an outright downpour.

im serious. Im sitting at a window in ikea as we speak trying to enjoy a slice of their wonderful wonderful chocolate cake as the roar of the torrential rain blots out everything else but i can’t.

even chocolate cake tastes like stale bread covered in sawdust when you’re despairing inside.

i hate to sound so gloom and doom but i’ve found out that j is indeed marrying c-their wedding is in 54 days lol and my old college crush is also engaged to get married.

yeah talk about a double whammy 🙁

Well i guess i have the closure i was wanting.

Now to finally move on with my life.

dearly beloved, i hope you and c are infinitely happy together forever. Best of love and health to you both.

I will not be writing to you or of you ever again and i will try my very best to forget you and not think of you again.

and contrary to what i’ve been writing, i am pretty chill with moving on, i actually dont have attachment issues at all as friends and loves slowly fade to aquaintances and then to a warm memory every once in a while when something happens to trigger such a memory.

so i will be fine.

Like i said, i have no problems moving on once the closure is there.

Guess its back to square one on the drawing board, bc im sorry the korean bro that i met last night just doesnt hold the spark that i need.

Well.

its been fun loving you, thank you for peppering my life with warm and wonderful memories and fantasies, i,m sure i,d have despaired more without you.

i am eternally grateful for getting to know you and i wish you the very best.

goodbye

xoxo