A Pale Pink City

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maestro-hans zimmer

That song as well as maxence cyrin’s where is my mind has been pretty much playing on repeat for the past few days.

And i am also enjoying immensely the soundtrack from theory of everything- that movie was just really touching and its moved me quite apparently lol

Lately i’ve been on an instrumental music high- not just movie osts but also classics such as dvorak and tchaikovsky and fauvre and gershwin and modern composers like flaming heart and 316 and epitone project and acoustic cafe to just name a few.

And just a few weeks earlier it was all about the 2000s pop stuff that i’d listen to in high school but yeah i was feeling pretty nostalgic atm

(But it must not only be me because digimon 2015?? Ummm clearly thats for the nostalgic 20 somethings who never got over that absolute horrendous ending of 02!!! Alslsldjfhskakdjfh it gets me angry just to think of it!!)

Anyways, last night, the freds had a small group over as y and a m were visiting in town!

Omg i’ve missed them dearly!! It was so nice to have them back, no joke they are the reason i was able to join chinese in the first place because prior to meeting y during service my dad was all like, u have to go to meeting with ur family!

But since meeting y i guess he thought i would be ok so i joined the very next month!

But yeah its pretty cool to see the different waves of mahwah/morris chinese and its growth, like yest i met l d who i’d always heard about but never actually met lol

And our current hall has so many new people that i feel like i don’t know half the people there, no joke.

But it was so very nice to see old familiar faces like Z and C W and B M and most of all my dear L M.

It was nice to catch up on each others lives.

Man.

I hate to be so mopey but man i wish i was back in time or had a time machine.

I’d be so much different!

And i’d like you while you where still with us and not after you leave lol.

Why is that??

Why do i like people once they are too far to be a feasible romantic interest?

Grrrr, my stupid fear of commitment!!

Well…

-mr. Darcy is adorbs!

-grasshopper- hope u dont have a crush on her, i mean u said she was dating a diff bethelite, i wish all the best for her with that bethelite lol!!

-definitely hope u are still single, lol i have this horrible tendency to crush on taken men inadvertently! 🙁

-size 11.5 shoes!!

-please get instagram! Or maybe not because then i’d be so tempted to get another smart phone instead of a regular flip phone as planned

-hope u meant it when u said u were single, omg im starting to sound creepy like overly attached girlfriend puhahaha

But yes, please do comeback to our hall if only for a visit and do so on a weekend when i’m actually around! So we can spend the whole weekend together- come to think of it, how’d u know i’d be working that weekend?? Did u ask someone about me?!?! Omg!!

-i will come to visit u once ive lost some more weight and cleared my skin.

And wow. Yesterday was such a pleasant suprise as i wasnt expecting u to be there but yet there u were.

Omg so glad i decided to go!

And z!! He’s my original boy confidante, i mean i could ask him about boys and he’d be truthful about what he thought of them so it was delightful to see u again and with ur beautiful beautiful wife- grrr why does she have to look so perfect?!?

Anyways.

I should really work out and stuff….

And work on my chinese….

Omg.

L BEAR I MISS YOU SO!!

fleeting memories

So….yeah L bear i kinda miss you. And i am esp missing u because of argentina, apparently i was being rude as per my sisters who l8stened in on my conversation with him last mon.

Darn.

now i feel terrible. But i havent ecen been able to apologize because he hasnt even called me since then.

I am a terrible person 🙁

but another (quite large part if i do say so myself lol) part of me very relieved.

I mean it just goes to show, we do not match.

And even my mom said she felt bad for forcing me to go with this and even volunteered to tell his aunt that i wasnt interested which totally shocked me but i guess even my own mother didnt want to see me wed to this guy.

Daddys been against it from the start, thank goodness.

So yeah ive been meaning to end it by being nice and telling him he,s a nice guy, wonderful credentials and everything but we were just not matching i mean i want to date someone i can interact personally with and not just over the phone, please marry\meet someone better than me.

I mean i suppose i could have handled this a bit more maturely but i panicked.

I dont do well over the phone to begin with but well i just dont know.

Sorry. 🙁

But yeah my convos with this argentina was so so so painful it was like getting my teeth scaled every time, like omg really??

But in contrast it is so so easy with you L, like i can tell u everything and u’d listen and i could listen to you sing, talk for hours.

And i miss that u know?

Too bad i never see u anymore and why why why are u coming to our hall when im in patterson that weekend??

Oh wells. If u were interested ud have made it happen.

Im sure ur dating someone else as we speak.

Well goodnight my sugar, i shall always hold u dear.

Xoxo

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