So….yeah L bear i kinda miss you. And i am esp missing u because of argentina, apparently i was being rude as per my sisters who l8stened in on my conversation with him last mon.

Darn.

now i feel terrible. But i havent ecen been able to apologize because he hasnt even called me since then.

I am a terrible person 🙁

but another (quite large part if i do say so myself lol) part of me very relieved.

I mean it just goes to show, we do not match.

And even my mom said she felt bad for forcing me to go with this and even volunteered to tell his aunt that i wasnt interested which totally shocked me but i guess even my own mother didnt want to see me wed to this guy.

Daddys been against it from the start, thank goodness.

So yeah ive been meaning to end it by being nice and telling him he,s a nice guy, wonderful credentials and everything but we were just not matching i mean i want to date someone i can interact personally with and not just over the phone, please marry\meet someone better than me.

I mean i suppose i could have handled this a bit more maturely but i panicked.

I dont do well over the phone to begin with but well i just dont know.

Sorry. 🙁

But yeah my convos with this argentina was so so so painful it was like getting my teeth scaled every time, like omg really??

But in contrast it is so so easy with you L, like i can tell u everything and u’d listen and i could listen to you sing, talk for hours.

And i miss that u know?

Too bad i never see u anymore and why why why are u coming to our hall when im in patterson that weekend??

Oh wells. If u were interested ud have made it happen.

Im sure ur dating someone else as we speak.

Well goodnight my sugar, i shall always hold u dear.

Xoxo